Thursday, November 11, 2004
haixx.. still remember one day he went out sorta nv tell me eh.. i waited.. then i go online saw a friend.. not very close but jst talk.. hahaha.. sadd ma.. so i said alot of shyt.. i said maybe he went out liao then like someone prettier dont want me liao.. cos got pretty girls.. then his sarcastism made me laugh lah.. in e end still kinda angry noh.. hmm.. then got once he cheated on me leh.. i almost dont know.. i tot it was weird n comfort myself shld b went out with his frens.. haixx how i know his frens told me n made me realised he went out with a girl eh.. siao i tat time got nth to say eh.. even more nth to say when he said "i tot u knew".. but sadd lah.. after sometime i also did e same.. hmm.. now.? i think he like somebody else noh.? or else why he sorta care so much.. haixx i cant even say out myself.. im not afraid eh.. i oready said as long he happy come what may ba.. but how shld i react.? what if i cannot take it either.? evryting is crazy..
*-ang3lrikku` got lost on 11/11/2004 10:54:00 AM.
Monday, November 08, 2004
Dont ever leave the one you LOVE for the one you LIKE,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love!
Guys drinks to forget about the girl..
Girls drinks to think back about that guy..
When guys are in love, they become poorer..
But when girls are in love, they become prettier..
Guys can forget, but cannot forgive..
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..
Guys care most about the quantity of love..
But girls care most about the quality of love..
Guys break-up when they feel love from another girl..
Girls break-up when they feel separation from her man..
*-ang3lrikku` got lost on 11/08/2004 06:58:00 AM.
haixx.. sad again.. from last night i cried.. till tis morning woke too early cry till goin school ba.. haixx afraid my fren suspect my eyes eh.. hmm.. guess my sensitivity is back.? or isit im envying too much.? my senstitive n paranoid made me think too much and neglected trust ba.. like what e song said.. whats love.. it aint about us.. its about trust.. haixx.. must go train again to lower e sensitivity ler.. or else im gonna get depression again.. rmb last time i get depression.. i go out for no reason will cry eh.. kinda shocked evrybody who saw eh.. hahaa.. then an adult say its normal actually.. jst a bottled up person.. ayy.. so actually each time i get angry i veri heartbroken eh.. cos i know he wont know how to give in and how to say nice tings to make me feel better.. then he not serious.. i more angry eh.. hehh.. then i wan cry but cant.. cos no reason.. my life isnt tat miserable til i have to cry for myself.. siann.. stoopid me.. but i wont angry for long de lah.. will get over it and somehow forget it.. hmm.. yesterday sunday was an eventful day.. saw alot of ppl.. chatted with alot of ppl.. alot of ppl sms me.. even met a new girl.. so tis girl arh.. so veri pro noh.. too protective over her bf.. called n sms him evry min.. n believe me, i meant evry min.. so cute right.. haixx cant blame too.. they stay quite far apart and she hardly can go out ma.. but abit interferring noh.. i tink veri pro leh e girl.. those ppl i chat with lah.. they also say they wanted to know what their other half doin evry min.. mayb not evry min.. but they want know lah.. but they nv ask eh.. i tink its weird.. i also leh.. but why these ppl wont like suffer eh.? hahaa.. then evrytime i hear dont tink too much dont tink so much.. haixx i also dunno how to dont tink so much eh.. i oready wanna care but dont wan care so much ler.. but i kinda find he lik no effort de eh.. sadd fret nxt yr cannot make it ler.. cos im e sort.. no matter how good we were in e past.. if there is no effort.. when we grew far apart.. e person will become onli a part of my life.. mayb he dont lik me liao.. mayb he lik somebody else.. oh well.. come what may ba.. leslie say what love is as long e other half is happy even though u not happy.. hahaa.. its kinda lik suffering love.. but im lik that ba.. then my another fren say "r u livin in a world full of hate? with a big fake smile n stoopid lies.. but deep inside u r bleeding".. i am eh.. i hate hate hate alot.. when will i ever b contented.? so last time i tot of giving up cos i dont know how to express myself n dont know how to care.. now he has tis problem.? [rugdoll// broken smile. empty soul. bleeding heart. dreamful mind. lost tears. reaching hand// always in the dark shadow. longing for warmth] thanks for caring.. but.. he dont.?
*-ang3lrikku` got lost on 11/08/2004 06:28:00 AM.
